miss my room

so, i looking at my old posts and came across my post called mySpace >>here<< and I realized 1) how much cooler of a life I had when I had a camera and 2) how much i miss my room.  seriously, like i miss my cave.  it was so puuuurty.

this is what i'm missing right about now....

my flowers.... i miss being surrounded by flowers

my bed... i miss my blankets and ugly zebra print pillows... i miss the fluffiness and warmth

strangely i really miss my bathroom.  i miss my wall of fashion inspiration and my window. i miss all my art work hanging in there and my candles and little jars.  i miss the pattern on the window. omg i miss it guys, this is so pathetic

honesty ponesty

You know what I don't understand?  I don't understand why people are so uptight about everyone being honest and saying exactly what they feel about things but when you say something completely honest and it regards them or a friend, they freak out.  They think you're being mean, rude, crazy.  Well hello, you're the crazy one, amigo! You're the ones who keep complaining that people don't just say it like it is or with complete honesty.  Like, its so hypocritical.  If you're going to tell someone to be honest, then let them be honest about whatever the hell they want because honesty is honesty no matter if its mean or kind or funny or sad.  Its all honesty.  And honestly, what is life without honesty?  A bunch of lies. And lies are stupid.  White lies, yeah whatever, those are easy to get over, but like legit lying.   No.  Stop.  Check yourself before you wreck yourself.

Okay, end rant.

I am so thankful that in a month I'll be done with all this craziness.

Can I get an amen, hallelujah to that?!

second-thoughts

I'm having second thoughts about my trip to Europe.
Like, I really want to go and have this wonderful experience seeing new things and being with people I love in a place that I've dreamed about going my entire life, but like, there are so many things I want to do here.  Even though I have like no friends here anymore, I want to stay here and be with people before I move across the country for four years, but like I said, I barely have any friends here anymore.  Also, money.  My parents are not going to pay one cent of my trip and I only have $1000 or so, so like I don't have the funds and I'm just in the mood to give up on it because I give up on everything in my life.  I never follow through with my plans, and partially I think it's because I hate it here.  I have no motivation.  But on the other hand, going to Europe would be my chance to get out of here.  SO MANY CONFLICTIONS.  I'm not quite sure what I am going to do....

HI

Let me set you all straight.  I love you all very much, and even if I barely know you or if you're just someone I pass by in the hall at school without realizing it because I'm either zoned out or sleep walking, I still think you are super cool.  Buuuut I don't care what you think.  Well, of course I care what you think, but I just don't care if you're sitting there judging me right now for having my own blog or posting about whatever's on my mind.  I don't care if you think its lame or is just for attention.  I don't care if you think what I have to say is stupid or self-centered or whatever your problem is with me or me having a blog.  I'm sorry that I like blogging and that I can speak my mind and I'm not scared of what people think or have to say about me.  Like good 'ol Dr. Seuss puts it: Be yourself and say how you feel, because the people who mind don't matter and the people who matter, don't mind.  I'm not worried about having in impress anyone or to live up to anyone's standards.  I'm me, and that's that so if you're reading this you'll have to deal cause this is Caroline and I'm real.  None of that fake-ness stuff that's way too common in the world we live in today.  I'm not trying to be rude right now, but I just wanted to make it clear that this is me being me so you can feel free to judge me, but I don't care....

Sorry, I'm really sassy.