I'm having second thoughts about my trip to Europe.
Like, I really want to go and have this wonderful experience seeing new things and being with people I love in a place that I've dreamed about going my entire life, but like, there are so many things I want to do here. Even though I have like no friends here anymore, I want to stay here and be with people before I move across the country for four years, but like I said, I barely have any friends here anymore. Also, money. My parents are not going to pay one cent of my trip and I only have $1000 or so, so like I don't have the funds and I'm just in the mood to give up on it because I give up on everything in my life. I never follow through with my plans, and partially I think it's because I hate it here. I have no motivation. But on the other hand, going to Europe would be my chance to get out of here. SO MANY CONFLICTIONS. I'm not quite sure what I am going to do....
